Being the eldest child in the family

Being the eldest child in the family simply means u have a bigger responsibility..

Well, I am the eldest child in the family too.. and to be honest, I sometimes dislike being the eldest child.. because being the eldest child, u would have to take up the blame when your younger sibling does something wrong..even when u did nothing wrong..

Sometimes, I even wished that my younger sibling doesn't exist at all.. but after serious thinking, i realized that without my younger sibling (which is my bro), no one will be there to make me laugh, to annoy me, to make me angry, to make me cry, without him, i will not be what i am today...

But, is like, u wished they never exist. but without them, u cant live.. here is one life example of what happened to me..

Mid-year examinations are over..and we have already gotten back our results.. My bro did really badly..and he failed all his subjects.. However, on the other hand, I did relatively well, most of them got As only 1 C and a B.. My dad was fuming mad at my bro's result.. and i was blamed for it.. 

"I thought i told u to guide your brother in his studies!? why is his results like this!!? i thought u were responsible for his studies!?" that was what my dad said to me.. I was blamed for it.. Imagine yourself having to be scolded for what something so unreasonable..furthermore, i've got good grades..

So now, my bro was banned from using his computer and his phone was confiscated as well.. he have to do lots or homework that my dad gave.. and he now sleeps at 2 plus in the morning and have to wake up at 7 to start his work again..

And because of him, i didnt dare to use my computer and phone.. i thought that it was really unfair to me, as why cant i play my games? i've gotten good grades, and i dont think i deserve it at all..

but after seeing my brother looking so pitiful having to sleep so late and wake up so early, it hurts me.. everytime my bro cries because he is required to redo his math, it makes me want to cry too..

i couldnt go and comfort him as my father is there.. and i dare not go close to them..

I feel like i am the meat that is placed in between 2 bread in a hamburger.. i did not know which side i should stand on.. i did not know what i should do.. all i can do is, pray that all this will be over and done with as soon as possible.. i really hope my bro gets better, and my dad gets more lenient.. all the best for my bro.. that's the most i and do for him already.. Sorry! All the best! JIE JIE LOVE YOU!!<3

jie jie = sister in chinese